Medical Update

I got to talk to Emma's cardiologist today. I wasn't expecting to but in the mist of me asking questions he came on the line. I love that he will do that when he can, he is so busy. They confirmed her angiogram with the hospital for April 22 and got insurance approval. I asked him what would happen if they will do the surgery and what if they don't. He said after the angiogram he wants to have time to review the result and prepare to present her in their meeting so it may be a couple weeks before we get a yes or no. He said it's going to take some convincing, I'm counting on a push from the other side. If they say yes then he want to wait until the summer to do the actual surgery because there isn't so much sickness around...kids are out of school and it's warm. If they say no then he wants to get a second opinion from UCLA which we'll talk more about what that means when we get there. I know this is all in the Lords hands but I have those days when I let fear cloud my faith. I know that if she's suppose to get this surgery it will happen...I guess I just get scared of the unknown. It's always harder when she's had a tired week, which she has. She fell asleep over Gma's chair today and kept asking me to hold her because her legs were tired. If I'm holding Tessa then she ask if she can sit on my other lap and points to my legs that's empty. Most days it's endereing and I just hold her but I have my moments of being overwhelmed with three young children and only two laps. I'm just grateful to still being able to hold her.